http://movies.yahoo.com/movie/1810007089/video/14502532

i think this movie looks really good. mhmmm.....

after a lot of thinking these past few days i have decided everything is going swell. i have come to terms with my latest decisions. i am happy.

if you have fun with life and try to enjoy your time here while being true to yourself, i can't see how bad it can be.

"I have no direction in my life, and I've never felt happier."

it really sucks to hear the things i've said and done that were not so awesome. thus restraint comes into play from now on...i hope.

I have become bitter (for lack of a better word at the moment). I used to love Missed Connections because some were cute and sweet. Now I read them and just think "lame, lame, lame". I used to like love stories and now I just think "lame, lame, lame". I used to be all for relationships, and at the moment I am telling my distraught (over a break-up) friend to be her own person, avoid dudes, and have fun as a single lady..for a good long while. I used to believe in "the one", HA... Life plays tricks on you, makes you think there is such a thing. Men should not be the only reason woman are happy and vis versa I suppose! I have always said that, but I focused all my teen years on a guy, then half of college and that got me a lot of heart ache. I didn't live by what I said. I have decided that friends and good times with them are most important. I may never again find someone that likes me, that I like, that just clicks. It's okay.

ps...I will probably take some of this back one day. Don't worry. This is just my summer thoughts.

My newest favorite saying to live by is Never Say Never...but...NEVER AGAIN. I will not.

That's the last time.

oh to dream.

my brother and i want to go into the same careers at this point in our lives. this makes me so happy. we can go into business together! someone get me out of vcu fast, get me in a good esthetics program, and get me to san francisco.

If I ever leave this world alive
I'll thank for all the things you did in my life
If I ever leave this world alive
I'll come back down and sit beside your
feet tonight
Wherever I am you'll always be
More than just a memory
If I ever leave this world alive

If I ever leave this world alive
I'll take on all the sadness
That I left behind
If I ever leave this world alive
The madness that you feel will soon subside
So in a word don't shed a tear
I'll be here when it all gets weird
If I ever leave this world alive

So when in doubt just call my name
Just before you go insane
If I ever leave this world
Hey I may never leave this world
But if I ever leave this world alive

She says I'm okay; I'm alright,
Though you have gone from my life
You said that it would,
Now everything should be all right

She says I'm okay; I'm alright,
Though you have gone from my life
You said that it would,
Now everything should be all right
Yeah should be alright

i started watching Weeds last night. it is so good. i can't wait to watch more.

it's weird to find out things that prove there are so many people in the same situation. the crappy parts of life happen to everyone. i'm not naive, i was aware, but when you see postings online that resemble your life, it's a good reminder. it proves everything will be okay.