I am content.

bye bye...

..to my two navel piercings. not healing properly and hurting. oh well.

i am currently snuggled in my bed at 4pm writing a paper. i don't think you are supposed to be cozy and laying in bed snacking while writing a paper, but it works for me. im enjoying an iced almond milk latte and zucchini bread with cream cheese. and i am writing this instead of my 2 page paper that i should have done right about now. o well. you know where im going in about 2 hours!?

VIRGINIA STATE FAIR

it's gonna be awesome.

i will say hello to the cat again!

i have the MOST AMAZING people in my life at the moment.

I LOVE IT

thank you so much best friends and great peeps.

i enjoy life. everyday.

sometimes i feel like life is one big joke. one that is not too funny.

BLOOP

thoughts at the moment:

-it's weird when you find out the thoughts of your friends...when they probably didn't think you knew or would see.
-it's awesome having dinner with more people than just myself, at home. yay for deepa and home cooked meals.
-i got a new planner and spent way to much time organizing my life in it
-i have so much to do.
-i am broke broke broke.
-i think i like my new haircut a lot.

http://movies.yahoo.com/movie/1810007089/video/14502532

i think this movie looks really good. mhmmm.....

after a lot of thinking these past few days i have decided everything is going swell. i have come to terms with my latest decisions. i am happy.

if you have fun with life and try to enjoy your time here while being true to yourself, i can't see how bad it can be.

"I have no direction in my life, and I've never felt happier."

it really sucks to hear the things i've said and done that were not so awesome. thus restraint comes into play from now on...i hope.

I have become bitter (for lack of a better word at the moment). I used to love Missed Connections because some were cute and sweet. Now I read them and just think "lame, lame, lame". I used to like love stories and now I just think "lame, lame, lame". I used to be all for relationships, and at the moment I am telling my distraught (over a break-up) friend to be her own person, avoid dudes, and have fun as a single lady..for a good long while. I used to believe in "the one", HA... Life plays tricks on you, makes you think there is such a thing. Men should not be the only reason woman are happy and vis versa I suppose! I have always said that, but I focused all my teen years on a guy, then half of college and that got me a lot of heart ache. I didn't live by what I said. I have decided that friends and good times with them are most important. I may never again find someone that likes me, that I like, that just clicks. It's okay.

ps...I will probably take some of this back one day. Don't worry. This is just my summer thoughts.

My newest favorite saying to live by is Never Say Never...but...NEVER AGAIN. I will not.

That's the last time.

oh to dream.

my brother and i want to go into the same careers at this point in our lives. this makes me so happy. we can go into business together! someone get me out of vcu fast, get me in a good esthetics program, and get me to san francisco.

If I ever leave this world alive
I'll thank for all the things you did in my life
If I ever leave this world alive
I'll come back down and sit beside your
feet tonight
Wherever I am you'll always be
More than just a memory
If I ever leave this world alive

If I ever leave this world alive
I'll take on all the sadness
That I left behind
If I ever leave this world alive
The madness that you feel will soon subside
So in a word don't shed a tear
I'll be here when it all gets weird
If I ever leave this world alive

So when in doubt just call my name
Just before you go insane
If I ever leave this world
Hey I may never leave this world
But if I ever leave this world alive

She says I'm okay; I'm alright,
Though you have gone from my life
You said that it would,
Now everything should be all right

She says I'm okay; I'm alright,
Though you have gone from my life
You said that it would,
Now everything should be all right
Yeah should be alright

i started watching Weeds last night. it is so good. i can't wait to watch more.

it's weird to find out things that prove there are so many people in the same situation. the crappy parts of life happen to everyone. i'm not naive, i was aware, but when you see postings online that resemble your life, it's a good reminder. it proves everything will be okay.

you met me at a very strange time in my life.

i had a lovely day. a lovely night. YAYYYYY.

I was born in a town where the rivers flow free
On a January night when the cold winds freeze
I got an Irish name and an injury
Blessing and a curse cast down on me
Ain't nobody got the blues like me
Ain't nobody got the blues like me

Was a blood red sky on the morning tide
Was a cold wind blowing when I left that night
And the morning bells rang, alright, alright
Shoulda stayed home with you that night
Ain't nobody played the fool like I
Ain't nobody played the fool like I

Things got bad and things got worse
Half like blessing, half like curse
It's these blessings so hard to see sometimes
Gotta little clearer about dusk last night
Ain't nobody got a blessing like mine
Ain't nobody got a blessing like mine

It's a red sky night and I'm doing alright
It's a red sky night and I'm doing just fine

BEST

i fucking love this movie, btw.

i feel awful. that's all i got right now. i can't wait for this weekend. i need it!

oh me 2.

"I have a ball's tongue. Seriously, look at my tongue when I stick it out far. It looks like a scrotum."
EW! haha

Another lovely quote compliments of Bernie Bruiser!

Dirty Living

Jesus I need to clean my room. My bed is a fucking disgusting place but I come home too late to worry about it when I pass out. I need a maid. This is a first. Martha Stewart would be so disappointed in me.

I love riding my bike. Riding at night was awesome. Molly and I rode about 4 miles weaving in and out of the fan with no destination. :)

I can't wait to get a nice bike that fits me.

I also can't wait to have some money. There are so many shows coming up! Ah

CatieMay

tonight i almost peed my pants laughing with this lady. my beastie.

sexy huh?

oh me.

I have to keep track of my lovely quotes. SORRY MOM

"These pita chips smell like cum." ...ewww (months ago)
"I'm an extremely well played hole" ...uhh (today)
"My tongue reminds me of balls" ...eeek (today)

im dirty. haha

also...i finished angel season 4. i have to make more money...so i can get season 5 quick!

angel is the man of my dreams. well..besides being dead and all. he is a pretty damn amazing/hot hot hot dude! such a good guy. shit.

though this may be a bit dramatic..

i wish i could fall off the face of the earth sometimes- just for a while. i mean, come on life!

im not terribly unhappy. just angry at the world at this second.

The Kiss

Summer Nights

We are the last of the jukebox Romeos,
We are managed by the love before
Came to sing out a chorus, reinvent the good times
Bring it all back home again

Honey we came to dance with the girls with the stars in their eyes
Do the jump back jack stop and slide to the right
Never break their hearts, never make 'em cry, come on
Strike up the band, play a song that everybody knows
If I'm not your kind then don't tell a soul
I'm not the one who hates being alone, so come on

And in the sun-stabled arena
Of what's left or become of my America
I'm asking this dance, so come take my hand, come on

And if they end it all by the end of tonight
If the big bomb drops down over this quiet Edison sky
We'll blow one last kiss to all the beautiful nights like this
Under the central Jersey sky

'Cause you ain't never had a night on the town
Like I could show you such a night on the town
And you ain't never had a song you could sing
Well it's a deep, dark night, and I hear you, I've been there
But these are the songs that we sing
Whoa-oh, these are the songs that we sing
You've never seen a two step
Like when you seen it from your mama's house
When the kids flash like lightning to the very best dancers around
We learned from the very best dancers around
We learned from the very best dancers in town
Come take my hand
'Cause mama we came to dance

ana found this...

and i like it!

Moonlight

this life is cray cray.
it's throwing so many things my way.
and having no school is throwing me off my regular 5 hours of sleep at night.
but im happppy about it all.

im glad things get me out of my bad moods so quickly! yay having awesome friends and an awesome life.

haha

and this!

it's been a long night! :)

okay i have to share this toooo!

i gave it one last go. i tried. that is all that can be done.

heavy heavy heart.

my septum ring fell out in the shower today.

i lost one of the balls...so im just gonna leave it out for a while.

it is the weirdest feeling.

im confused on what action i should take.

life...give me more time.

please

...i can't keep it all inside.

:D

I am in such a good place. I feel awesome....well despite this cold or whatever I have going on. I am relieved. I am clear and free. Now to just get through these finals!

Last nights show

Saves The Day opened with Anywhere With You...

I know I can't come near you
Every time I do
I get shaken inside and the sun in my eyes
I'll stay away

I'd rather be here
than anywhere with you
Whoo

I've been dancing with your ghost
Toasting note to note
So here's to the passing
of all that could be
between you and me

I'd rather be here
than anywhere with you
Whoo

I know I can not see you
even if I wanted to
'cause your light is the light of ten sunsets
There go my eyes
They're burned blue and opened wide

That is one of my favorites of theirs...so that was exciting.

Alkaline Trio opened with My Friend Peter...

I dont care who you've been sleeping with these days
You're outta my hair
It's growing just above my smiling face that I wear
Every night I drink myself to sleep
Not thinking about you
Not thinking about anything at all

I don't care who you've been dining with these days
It's more than fair
Much rather be drinking anyways
With my friend Peter
Who lives so fucking far away
Yet not as far as you
Even though you live right down my fucking street

And I'm tired of sleeping with myself
I'm tired, all these drinks and drugs no longer help
I'm tired of lying about not thinking of you
Maybe my friend Peter can tell me what to do

I dont care who you've been kissing on these days
It's out of my hands
and in my mouth with such a pleasant taste
I need a beer to wash it all away without a trace
And then i'll drink 23 more
To wipe this stupid smile off my fucking face

I'm tired of sleeping with myself
I'm tired, all those drinks and drugs no longer help
I'm tired of lying about not thinking of you
Maybe my friend Peter can tell me what to do

Soo good!

I had a good time. But it was weird because I knew more Saves the Day then Alkaline Trio songs. Because Alkaline Trio played so much newer stuff that I don't listen to (Good Morning, Crimson, Agrony and Irony). That was a bummer.

Army of Darkness=AWESOME

and...

Thanks VCU's Dean, for congratulating me on my graduation accomplishment...

Rub it in that I am not graduating on time...please.

FUCK

:D

I keep forgetting I have something to look forward to at the end of this week, other than actually sleeping at some point.

Alkaline Trio and Saves the Day!!! in Baltimore at Sonar...which I hear is a small venue!

I have always wanted to see Saves the Day, so I am super excited. And this will be like the fourth time seeing Alkaline Trio, but I have never been disappointed :)

I am glad to end my rough semester with yet another fun show with my great friends.

Shame on Me!

...I guess I’m not as tough as I thought I was...

Social Distortion on repeat. All day :)

Last week of the spring semester! So so stoked.

I had such a good time tonight.

Then it hit me like a ton of bricks. I don't think I can ever be truly happy again. But, if this is how my life is going to be...then so be it. I feel okay, I think.

eek

god dammit. im so dumb. now im so upset. why o why do i like to torture myself.

Sad News

http://www.eonline.com/uberblog/watch_with_kristin/b106789_angel_star_andy_hallett_dies_of_heart.html

Angel wouldn't have been the same without him!

..now everyone knows how big of a geek i am.

i'm really jealous of other peoples success. dammit.

why the heck does the riot before have to be playing in richmond the same night that i will be seeing against me! in virginia beach. i mean...i would rather see against me!, but...i keep missing riot shows. I AM SO EXCITED.

Stumbled

I hardly ever use Stumble!...but today I got this:
http://endosymbiotic.tumblr.com/post/89152107/you-may-not-be-her-first-her-last-or-her-only

Thought I would share. Me likes it.

Eek.

im dumb. i spend too much money. and now have to live off less than $100 for the next 2 weeks. i would say FML..but it's my own damn fault.

Arg

After not working too much at Starbucks, I had forgotten how unbelievably bitchy customers can be. I had learned to deal with the Virginia Beach coffee snobs...now I have to learn to deal with the Richmond ones. I wanted to deck the lady in the face.

:)

I just got Season 3 and 4 of Angel. You will not see me for the rest of the week. I've got things to watch!

This made me smile.

There is a random acquaintance that wants to hang out with me. That makes me feel special.

You Gotta Know How I Feel...

Since I wrote a day one...I guess a United Blood Day 2 post is necessary.

I was only truly introduced to hardcore a while back, so I feel honored to have seen the legendary Cro-Mags. I heard them long ago and thought they were really good. Then finally got their albums from Catie and listened to them a lot. Then I got to see them! (And by see them I mean I got to see bits and pieces of them when a group fell off the stage) They blew me away. They were so awesome and I had a fucking blast. I am glad I was able to be there with Catie, Cro-Mags are her favorite band and she was so stoked on seeing them live.

I also really enjoyed seeing Alpha & Omega...I fucking love them. Other sweet shit I got to hear: Bad Seed, Pulling Teeth, Naysayer, Blacklisted, and Ceremony.

This weekend I acquired 5 new shirts and a CD. It was so much fun. Great experience...definitely going again next year.

TIP YOUR SCALE

Today I went to the first day of United Blood Fest.

All I can say is HOLY SHIT...fucking awesome. So much fun. I very much enjoyed War Hungry, Title Fight, Mother of Mercy, Cold World, Cruel Hand, Trapped Under Ice, and Reign Supreme. I am exhausted though. Can't wait for round 2 tomorrow. Even though I have a pounding headache at the moment.

note to self:

not doing homework to sit on the couch with your roommates and eat chocolate tofu at midnight is a fantastic idea.

Blasts from the Past

Getting back in touch with old friends is the best thing in the world. I had conversations with 3 people I haven't spoken to in a while, just today! I hope these relationships are rekindled for good. Friends are splendid.

La La La Update

My spring break ruled. I enjoyed New York. I am in love with the subway. Propagandhi made me so happy. They played a ton of old stuff. They were awesome and blew me away.

<---Eating my delicious New York cupcake in Washington Square Park :)


Soon my life is going to be even crazier than it already is...I am excited! I have 2 jobs, an internship, and school. I am going to work my ass off. I will be taking some significant road trips this summer. I will also be taking classes. I am so looking forward to a summer in Richmond...even though it will be hot and gross. BBQ's out back, hopefully a lot of barbecue tofu, river, work, bike rides and late nights under the stars, and plenty of shows.

I have a goal to save up some money for a larger tattoo before summer hits.

Next week is United Blood Fest. Pretty stoked.

Wolf Like Me...

im a sad cookie at the moment.

Sping Break...here I come.

I am counting down the minutes until I leave for my Spring Break trip with Catie. I all set and super excited. I've been incredibly sick all weekend and I am hoping that it will be completely gone by our arrival in New York City!

Things I am super excited about in NY:
-Eating at awesome vegetarian and vegan resturants
-Shopping
-Walking around the big city
-Coney Island (even though it will be mostly closed, I was to see it, always have)
-Spending time with my best friend!
-Seeing Jordan!
-Going to see PROPAGANDHI (my favorite band since I was in high school) and Paint It Black
-Adventure!

woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo :)

Let Them Eat Cake!

I found this stumbling on the internets...I love it.

"We are all a little weird and life’s a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love." -Unknown



I finally saw Marie Antoinette. It was so lovely. It was so good. It brought something out in my emotions...I am not sure what the hell that was.

im a Hopeless Romantic...



and i think that might be hopeless.

Food is Good

I just ate a really yummy sandwich...
Black Bean Burger with a half an avacado, hummus, lettuce, carrots, cheddar cheese, and mustard.
Mmm mmm Mmmmm

BACK

Yeah...a short lived hiatus. But I am ready to blog again.

I AM TOO HAPPY TO CONTAIN MYSELF. I am very content where I am at this point. (redundant?)

I am so excited for all the baking to be done tomorrow. Not excited for all the work though, bummer. Yes, that is it for the moment.

o wait: I arm wrestled a 13 year old girl today and won. She challenged me, I had to show her who's boss. ;)

:(

I will no longer be using this. At least for a while.

:/

I am preparing myself for my first day as a TEENS intern. I am so nervous...since it's new I suppose. I am repeatedly telling myself everything will be okay. Ugh. Classes went fine today, but the first day is no way to judge the semester. We will seeee. Ahh..

Don't get worried, don't get scared

<3
So today was the most stressful, annoying day at work I think I ever had. I almost got up and walked out. Fo realz. Way too many people freak me out! Then my evening sure wasn't what was planned. But, things came up and I totally understand. Now I have another night to look forward to :)
I am getting really excited about what is going on. I really hope I don't get disappointed. But I am thinking positive because I really think it's gonna be awesome. And that we (my best friends and I) will all have great things going for us.

Classes start tomorrow and it's CATIE'S birthday, so I am really excited. The fact that I only have one class tomorrow might be helping that feeling. And that I get to spend the majority of my day with the birthday girl.

"So remember, out there somewhere you've got a friend, and you'll never walk alone again"

Butterfiles

After today I realized...things are gonna be okay.

I am happy to have certain people in my life. And, I am glad that they are so happy.

I just watched Garden State. Another one of my favorite movies that makes me realize life sucks sometimes, but there are great things in it. I can't believe I haven't watched that in so long either.

I'm back. I'm good.

Cheer-ie

my head is spinning.

i'm tired of being sick. i'm tired. i'm feeling pretty low. i'm ready for shit to be over. i don't want to go back to school. i'm scared. i'm broke. i need to do so much the next couple days. i don't want to grow up. i hate my job.

my head hurts.

i have an urge to do something i haven't done in a year and 2 months... :(